My frikin music Monday #2

I found some really good songs last week. Soem of those i already knew, some of them are new to me, but i really enjoy all of them.

I heard this song last night on the radio, and i love it, i think it might be one of my fave songs right now :)

And for last.... 

weekend's over, oh no !

It's been quite nice, relaxing  weekend :)

I had a dentist appointment in Friday, i don't have to back til Jany :) 

Saturday started with terrible head ache. For breakfast i ate 2 painkillers and for lunch i had 3 painkillers and i had a nice dinner- two different painkillers.  But there were couple of hour when i didn't feel any pain, so that was good. 

I also went ice-skating with my niece. That was so much fun. We don't see each other much even if we now live in the same city, so that was nice :) She's such a lovely girl :)  After ice-skating we were pretty hungry so we bought pizza :)  And we spent some time wondering around the shopping centre.
Oh, and while we were skating  something like that happened.

Well she didn't actually broke the barrier. I was skating(pretty fast)  and i suddenly decided to turn around, and i didn't see this girl who was behind me. So i made THE TURN so did the girl behind me, she didn't have a choice, otherwise she would have skated into me.  So she instantly grabbed the barrier but she grabbed exactly where the door was and it was open, but she didn't know. So door went open and she disappeared. It was so funny. I hope she didn't get hurt. :) Sorry :)

It was after 6 pm when i came home.

I spent rest of my night having a movie marathon with my brother. First we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks, then UFO, witch was pretty intense, and then we watched Brave, which is so good, great movie :)   We finished watching movies after 2 am. 

It's Sunday now, and i have  terrible stomach ache. My brother wants to go shopping with me, but i think i will stay home. I can't even stand straight.

 And Sunday also means that it's time to watch  DAN & PHIL. Their radio show is brilliant :)  At least i know what I'm gonna to later tonight :) 

 And i have to go back to school tomorrow. I'm not ready for this. I've home for about month and a half i think.  That sucks big time.

Don't let your dreams just be dreams.

When i was a kid all my friends had dreams.  Boys usually dreamed about becoming police officers, girls wanted to be a ballet dancers.. and I ? I wanted to become a Santa. Yeah, i was a weird kid.  My dad told me that one day I  ran home and announced that I'm gonna be a prostitute. I told him that older girls were talking that prostitutes make shit loads money. Luckily that time, i didn't know what that word meant. I also was sure that if you want to have kids, you have to travel to the USA. Because there are some kind of doctors who will plant a pill into your tummy, and in nine months time it will grow into a baby. I was so weird. Luckily I've grown up and my dreams are changed.

 I thought i will write down my dreams, so i can read them someday later and see how much of a loser i am, for not making my dreams come true :) 

Travel. I always wanted to travel the world. I want to discover new places and meet new people and see different cultures. I want to see how's life outside my home country. So far i have only been to Finland, Sweden, Russia and Latvia. Mostly those have been school trips, and everybody knows that school trips suck. I mean, when you're on a trip with your school you never have time to to what you want to, or you can't go places you want to go. But if you travel on your own with your friend, in my case prob with my best friend, it's a different experience. so when I'm older and i have kids, i can tell them all the awesome stories about our trips. My best friends sister has all these unbelievable cool stories about her trips and stuff. I want to travel so i can have my own story. So i can be a storyteller for a change. 

Move out. I'm turning 20, and  i don't have my own place. I'm a student so obviously i don't have enough money for a flat but i can dream about it. I have all these ideas, what i want to do when i have my own home.    

Did i mention, that it would be perfect if my own flat could be in UK? Well yeah, I'd like to live in UK for a while. I'm so obsessed with that idea that one day i could actually move there.  I would also like to live in Australia for a while. When i was younger child my doctor recommended for my mom to move there with me, til i grew older. That's because i was always ill, and at some point doctors said that i might die. So i really would like to stay there for a year or something.
 I grew up in a small village, and after that we moved to small city. So i love animals, by animals i mean horses, lambs, cows, all kind of farm animals. So obviously i dream that i could have my own country house with bunch of animals in there.

Be happy. I have always been the person who smiles all the time, because i have noticed if I'm happy, other people are happy too. Smile and the world smiles back. I haven't let sadness take over me. But last months have been different. I don't feel this happiness anymore. It like something has changed, but i don't want it to change.When i at the people who are surrounding me, all i see is that they are way better persons than i am, and i don't deserve to be here with them. And there are days when i can't get this out of my head.
 I still smile as always, because if i don't people will start asking questions, and I'm not sure if i know answers to their questions.
 It not even sadness, and i cant even tell what it is, but i don't like it. Some days i feel like i don't care what happens anymore, other days i feel like i could not want a better life.
When I'm in school and someone says she likes my jumper or hair color, or bracelet, or something like that, then it just makes me happy. They don't know that they have made my day.
 So i promise myself i will do everything to feel happier. Luckily i have couple of very good friends who make my days better :)

Walk. I love walking when i have no destination. I'd like to find some time to go out and just walk. Since I'm living near the beach now, i have perfect place to take walks. I like to walk around with my headphone on, music blasting into my ear. To know that all these people are rushing to go somewhere and I don't have to go anywhere, i can have all this time to myself, it's makes me happy.:)

Have a camera. What? I have all these ideas about what i would do with camera. Is it a picture or video, but i know that i would enjoy doing what ever i do. It would be also a good reason to get out of my house.

So i think that's it for now. I might add some dreams/resolutions someday later. So i hope that when i look back at this post something has changed. But probably I'm gonna read this post next year and see what a loser i am. :)

absolutely amazing.

Im so sorry if you haven't heard this yet. It's so amazing. It makes me cry everytime i watch it. Just watch it! :)

OUTERNET

I woke up today 5 am. Just because my cat thought i wanna play with him. Well Think again ! :).  So I am pretty tired. And i have to go out today, like I have to go to the outernet today, and maybe even communicate with real people.

Paramore is on the BBC R1 in couple of minutes.

 They are playing their new single for the first time. I'm so excited.  I'm am currently watching them live, and they all are so awake. Grimmy is one special snowflake, i like him :D  They are playing some music right now, prob because they are trying to catch Hulk Hogan.
Finally, they are playing it. They are playing new song.  All these emotions. :) Btw it's called Now, if you didn't know :) Interview with Paramore has come to and end. All good thing, come to an end.... :)  That was awesome.

They also  made a new friend - Hulk Hogan. 

 Grimmy and Hulk are playing Showquizness with #Showbot. Sorry if you're missing the show.

Noo, i don't wanna go anywhere today. :S  Gonna finish this post later when i get back home. :)

So now I'm back from town. for those who don't know, i live about 40 minutes away from the capital of Estonia - Tallinn. I got my new glasses on and everything looks so clear.  Do people who don't have to wear glasses see as well as i see with my glasses ? Anyway I'm so happy right now. Now i don't have mole vision. 

While i was on a bus, i was listening some music and One Direction - over again started playing, so i was having a lovely duet with the guys in my head, and at one point i forgot i was on a fucking bus, so i started singing out loud. WHAT? how can you forget that you're on a bus, with other people.?  Luckily, there was only like 6 people on that bus, beside me. 

I also went to see my brother while he was working. He told me that he might go to Finland someday soon, to visit his father. So I asked him to buy me Maltesers, in Estonia they sell the only on Tallink ships. So Now i can't wait til he leaves.  :) Why Maltesers? Because everybody is saying they are good, and besides it's food, i like food. :) And obviously because ......

That's it, hope you had a good day :)

My frikin Music Monday!

I though i should share some music i have lately discovered. :)

That's an old song but i thought it's worth sharing. Love it :)

Little bit of Grimmy :)

And another Muse song. 

Love these two :)

Love this song :)

And last one, just because...Delia Smith :D

So yeah, here you have it :)

My best friend

It all started when i was in third grade. She was new in my school and i knew that she had a older brother who was in the same school. I don't think we spent a lot of time together in her first year in our school. But she had a best friend who's sister was my brothers girlfriend, so i was a good friend with her. So at one time we started hanging out. There used to be four girls ( Me, Getter, Her best friend, and a friend of me who lived in the same city where i did) who were always together. I think next year, when i was in 4 grade, Getter was in third ( yeah, she's year and a half  younger than me ) we started hanging out a lot more.  We used to play with our toys (usually teddy bears), we pretended that a cupboard was their home and we spent hour and hours playing in front of our cupboard. I remember how we climbed the trees and pretended that each  branch had a different function, like if you pull the longest branch it will make chocolate and so on.

Some times we still get together with our friend, who used to be in our "group" and we talk about all the weird stuff we did in school.

I remember how three years ago, i think it was three years ago, getter wanted me to dye her hair brown. That was on her b-day and so we bought a brown hair dye, but what she didn't know was that i had bought also a red hair dye, so when i started coloring her hair she thought it's gonna be all brown and nice, but instead she got red hair. Sorry about that, it was funny :)

I remember when we got drunk together for the first time. We were barbecuing near the beach with her family.  I remember how we desperately needed to go to the bathroom, and her father didn't let us go, cause he thought we get lost, and hurt ourselves and other people around us.
I remember when her classmate was trying to communicate with ghosts and we thought it will be funny if we throw rubber pieces to her room door.  At one point she ran out of her room, came into ours and started screaming at my bed, not at me, because we were standing on the table behind our door. That was funny in real life :)

We're not in the same school anymore, cause i already graduated and she still has few month left in there.
Looking back at the time when we were younger, everything seems a little bit different. I mean i never pictured that im gonna be a teacher, i always thought im gonna go and try to get in drama school. We're both grown up now. Even she isn't that same little girl i used to have weird photo shoots. But she's still my best friend. And it doesn't matter how much she changes, she's always gonna be that little girl wearing funny glasses to me. x

Friday !

It's friday, which means i can see Getter.She's my best friend and im gonna talk about her someday :) I went to see ophthalmologist today, cause i broked my glasses two weeks ago and i needed new ones, so i thought i might as well get my eyes controlled. Turns out my eyesight is little bit better than 5 years ago :)  Gonna get new glasses on tuesday.  Til then, im blind.... oh nooo :)

Afterwards we hanged out at my place and we were hungry so we went shoppin and bought chocolate and Maoams, cause that's what you eat when you're hungry :D

Im living with my older brother and he brought me four nail polishes, two lipsticks,  a lipgloss and a powder :) Loving these nail polishes :)

It's 9 pm and i'm feeling sleepy.
Oh and i dyed my hair today, well i didn't Getter did my hair, i had red hair now im all brown'ish :) Love it :) I also bought blond hair dye, i want ombre hair, but now im not sure. well see what im gonna do :D

Im so sorry for the mistakes. :)

Good morning sunshine.

I have been up for couple of hours now, and i pulled my curtains open and i can see that sun's out :) so i went to our living room and that's what i saw.

It's beautiful outside :)

now im listening Alex Day- Good morning sunshine. Perfect song for a perfect morning :)

decisions.

So it's almost 11 pm, and i have decided to create a blog. Obviously cause im awesome like that. No but seriously, what's wrong with me.?
I can't even keep my eyes open, but i have to. Im afarid if i don't finish this blog right now, i'll never finish it. I'll try my best to finish what i have started.
But now i can't do it, cause Top gear is on tv and i have to watch it. I love this show, i love British humor.
I'll bette go and watch it now.
But im gonna leave  a note somewhere, so i couldn't forget that i just made a blog.
And what seems weird/funny to me, is that i write in english even if it's not my first language. I find writing in english easier? even though i make mistakes. At least I try :)
Really gotta go now :)

Here's a cute british guy for me/you :)